I know I haven't posted in a little while, ok a LONG while, but things over all where just going so good. I recovered from my mono and got everything back on track and DJ and I were spending time together, having fun and just enjoying each other's company. Now things are so screwy I don't know if I should smile, cry, be mad, laugh or any other range of emotions... so as most females do, I just cry. Mostly sit here and be numb, but occasionally cry. Wanna know what happened? Me too! Beats the hell out of me. One minute I'm floating on cloud nine, the next I am walking through the entrance of some sort of hell. So now I am left waiting, helpless and afraid of possibly losing the most wonderful thing that has happened to me. And I am not talking about Italy, but a person who I could never forget and had hoped to never lose. The first love of my life.... I somehow feel like I am being punished. Like I have this eternal doom over me and when I start to get too happy that fate has to stick its nose in and ruin it all. Which means that who ever is making me happy ends up getting messed with as well. How horrible is that?? I can handle stuff happening to me, just not to those I love dearly. Welcome to the dark side...
So mostly I am trying to keep myself distracted which is a little hard being home alone. I do the best I can an avoid anything that brings me back to the reality of waiting for the final strike against me... I truly hope love wins, I really truly hope and pray.
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What goes around comes around and it's nice to see people like you getting what they deserve for once, enjoy it, I know I am.
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