Buongiourno Katie,
I am sorry to hear about formal recruitement. I know how it feels to put your heart and soul into something and not have the results you hope to have. But at least you can try for January when you don't have formal recruitement. The sorority is still semi new so it will grow slowly and eventually be an awesome sorority. I am really looking forward to joining in January.
I am kind of at a cross roads here in Italy. Well for one, DJ and I have started to talk again and I can only hope for the best when I come home. He says things that makes me think he too isn't over me and I have come to realize I am still extremely in love with him and know I am suppose to be with him. I sent him an e-mail that told him I am not going to give up on him and I will give him the space he needs but will not let him go without a fight.
I am extremely homesick and wish I could make a weekend trip home to give me some home-lovin' and then finish my semester here. Can you believe I have already been in Italy for a month? It feels like I just got here yesterday and yet it feels like I have gone on a vacation for ever. I think if I have more things and pictures, well any pictures, from home that I would feel like my apartment here is much more homie and not just some place I am residing in.
I joined the soccer team here but found it to be a much larger commitment that I anticipated. They practice Monday, Wednesday and Friday and play a game on Sunday. It takes such a huge chunk out of my day. On Sunday I got picked up for the game at 2:15 and didn't get home till around 6:30. Thats a long time. It also takes a lot more energy cause I have to try and understand everyone and have them understand me. Yesterday I had so much work to catch up on and plan this weekend trip, next weekend trip and my 10 day mid-semester trip that I didn't get home till 8:30pm and I was suppose to be picked up at 7:10 for practice. I totally forgot about it cause I was so intent on getting things done and out of the way. I still didn't get done everything I had hoped to do but have wednesday to try to finish it all.
I am going to Pisa this weekend with Ashley. She too goes to Oakland. She is really nice and we get along wonderfully. There is another girl named Leanne who goes to Oakland and a dushbag of a guy named Daniel. I get along great with Leanna and Ashley, well most everyone here except Daniel. He has been pissing me off with his greater than everyone else attitude. I keep being pissy to him but thats because he keeps being a dick about crap around me. I have no problem being an asshole to him while getting along awesome with all 24 other people, (there are only 26 people here and only 4 of those are guys).
Ashley and I are leaving on Thurs. night and then spending friday in Pisa while we take a trip on Saturday to Lucca, the home of Puccini. We are going to try and find an opera Saturday night.
Macerata, the place were we live, is such a small town. At first it felt large but now that I see that I keep running into the same crowds of people I see how small it really can be. Ashley and I have been feeling trapped here so we are skipping the exursion on friday and heading out to Pisa. Next weekend we have off and it is Ashley's birthday on saturday so a few of us are heading out to Capri to spend the weekend there in the nice and warm, hopefully not rainy, weather.
On my 10 day break I will be heading out to Sicily and could not be more excited. I will be meeting up with Leanne and Chris during the last couple of days but otherwise I will be going on my own and doing everything I want to do and not have to accomodate anyone else. I almost didn't go to Sicily because everyone who said they would go with me bailed out but now I will have company the last couple of days. By then I am sure I will be happy to have them around. They invited me to go to Greece with them and it is really tempting but I really want to spend as much time in Sicily and possible so declined and decided to tough it out on my own and really get into the culture. Traveling a lone is always a differernt experience than going with other people and having to compromise. Sometimes it works out wonderfully but in this case I need to just go on my own.
I really miss you and miss hanging out with the sorority girls. I don't think I will be extending my ticket cause it looks like I will be able to go to just about all the major cities I wish to see before I am suppoes to head back to the states.
It is funny how coming to Italy has really brought me back to myself and made me realize how much of denial I was in about being over DJ. I totally was not and will not be because I feel like he is the person I am suppose to be with. Maybe it will change in the future but as of right now this is something I am sure about.
My younger sister Renea is going through a really hard time right now and it makes me want to be home even more because I want to be able to be there for her. Jenna, the other sister that lives in Florida, moved to the other side of the state for her internship so isn't able to be there for her either which means she feels, and pretty much is, really alone. Her boyfriend who was living with her went to go visit his friend in Jacksonville, Florida and then came home, packed his clothes and moved in with his friend. He said he needed to do something drastic to get out of his job. When I talked to Renea last night she said that he was also scared off because of how she and my Mom kept trying to get him to participate in the business. He acted like and put off this front of being interested and that was why my mom kept trying to work with him is showing him how to get building on the business. Now my sister has resentment towards the business and it is such a shame because this really could get her out of the rut she is in right now with struggling with her finances. My parents are really going strong and looks like I will come home quite a booming business.
I was also talking to my mom about what I could do for a job when I get home and she was mentioning that there might be some full time personal asistant jobs available through some people in the business. I will hopefully graduate this coming May, got the notice in my Oakland mail that their records indicate I will graduate this year and hopefully my plan of study will be accepted so I will be a general studies major, so have been thinking a lot about what to do when I am done with school. I was talking about how much I want to move out of Michigan but don't want to move to Florida. I want to find my own nich in the world and already have two sisters in Florida. My mom mentioned Atlanta but the other thing I am starting to take into consideration is if I get back together with DJ what he would want/be able to do if I moved. I know I shouldn't be thinking of something like this but I can't help myself and am just reveling in the fact I will be done with school. I am so ready to be done and move on into the real working world and build my business while gaining experiences doing various things and traveling. I don't think I could live in Italy unless I was super rich and could hire people to do a lot of the things that I have to do. Having a dryer would help too, and someone to share the experience with. Italy for me has become a place to visit, not to live in. I am thinking of continuing my education with Italian Language even after I am graduated at OCC. I actually want to become fluent in the language. Never thought I would ever come to a point were I wanted to be fluent in a foreign language. So now that I have written half a book about my thoughts I think I will let you go and live your busy life. Make sure to save some time for me when I come back home mid december. I will definately want to see you and everyone else I miss ooh sooo much!
Ciao,
Elena
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